Christmas Eve…Self Care

Today is Christmas Eve….I am at work until 3pm…..my thoughts? Oh well, lets make some money. There is no reason for me to be upset about having to work today, we don’t get my youngest till this evening late anyway.

Self Care is my plan for the day.  I decided this when I arrived at work after being a nervous wreck on the interstate (pouring the rain, new rental car). I was panicky, and tense by 7am….whats wrong with me? I am alive and it is Christmas Eve, I should be thankful.

My plan for today:

  • Listen to Beach Vibes radio on Spotify
  • Leave work about 3pm
  • Swing by the Dollar Tree and find the last stocking stuffers I need for the husband
  • Tidy up the house
  • Wrap Presents
  • Take a bubble bath and have a glass of wine
  • Attend Christmas Eve high mass
  • Pick up my youngest

Yesterday my husband told me, he felt distant because of how tense we had both been…. I want this to change. Christmas should not be a tense time for couples but for your average every day couple it is. We are all struggling. We must all remember you cannot pour from an empty cup.

If anybody is like me, I do not know how to relax. My mind does not stop. This ends today.

I will take time to myself. I will relax and let the things that are out of my control be. I do not want to be tense on Christmas day. I will take time to take care of myself this evening and finish up last minute things while dancing around the house with my husband and son.

Well Here We Are

Well here we are. It has been 9 days since my last blog post. I do apologize, there has been a lot going on and stress levels are high.

It has been interesting only having one car. We are making progress with our claim though and got a rental car 2 days ago.

Mom #1 is also causing some issues with my oldest. There is some emotional baggage and mental issues that she is projecting on him. She has told him that she wants nothing to do with him and that my husband and I are bad influences. This is causing him a great deal of distress, is causing him to be distracted in school and caused him to loose his girlfriend. Keep in mind he has lived with us for the past 7-8 years with minimal contact with her.

I was selected for verification through EKU, so now I am fighting to get tax transcripts in and submitted in time. Most of the classes I need to take are full so I am still struggling to get into the correct classes. This is becoming a long drawn out process but the end result will be worth it.

Well that’s an update on life as of right now.

 

P.S 4 days to Christmas and the shopping still isn’t done!

Christmas Panic

12 days until Christmas. Most people are excited. I am in shear panic. We are not financially struggling for essentials, rent, food, utilities etc. Christmas always puts us in a panic. The kids are at the age of everything they want is over $40, we normally do not have the extra money saved up. This year everything was going great, until my car got totaled an we had to use christmas money to get our other car running.

We have bough 5 presents total since September. Our next pay day is December 22nd. Thankfully this paycheck will have no bills coming out. Just presents.

 

Even though christmas is not about gifts, I still believe the kids need something to open.