She is a Baby Alligator!


Well, Elena has two teeth now! At not even 6months old, She is a baby alligator. So far she is doing good with not biting “too hard” but it still feels like an alligator on my nipples.

We are in full swing of baby lead weaning so far Elena has tried…

  • Avocado (not a fan)
  • Banana
  • Mango
  • Green Beans
  • Mashed Potato’s (not a fan)
  • Yogurt
  • Gerber little crunchies (baby Cheetos)
  • Gerber Puffs
  • Shredded Cheese
  • Buttered Toast
  • Asparagus

Her favorites are mango, yogurt and shredded cheese!

We also began cloth diapering using Alva Baby Diapers. So far I love them, I need to order more. I only ordered 6 to try them out before purchasing my stash. This is one of the ways we are cutting costs. I did not have time to do the laundry associated with cloth diapering while working full time but now that I will be a stay at home mom I will have plenty of time.


I Did It…

I did it finally.

On May 4th I will move from 50+ hours a week at my corporate job to a measly 12-16hours a week to be home with my baby girl. I will go from making $500 a week to barely scraping $200.

Why am I doing this, putting my family in such hardship?


I am doing this for happiness. Overworked, Overstressed me is hurting my marriage and therefor hurting my child.

Now I will be available to love on my husband in the evenings, because I will have already done my errands and housework.

This is going to be an exciting adventure where we do a lot of learning and growing.

I am excited. I am terrified. I am nervous. I am delighted.

To The Working Mama…

To the working mama who wants to be a stay at home mama… I see you. I am you.

From the minute they placed that tiny bundle of joy in my arms on October 26th my world was forever changed. I knew from that moment that I wanted to be a stay at home mom until she was old enough to attend school.

But here I am… lunch time at my grueling corporate job. I wake up at 5am every morning to prepare to be at the morning board meeting by 7am  Armed in my business suit, with coffee in hand.

I don’t want to be that women, I do not want to be a part of an international corporation. I want to be a mom and a wife and that is it but our finances won’t allow for that. Unfortunately there are far too few articles and blogs addressing this. I know there are more than just 4 or 5 of us working mamas that would rather be at home with our babies but are forced to work.

I have no tips or advice on how to become a stay at home mama because I am still trying to figure that out myself. I even wrote a mock resignation letter today that I won’t be submitting anytime soon.

I have fought depression and anxiety since returning to work that is starting to take a toll on my health and even my marriage.

In a conversation with some clients this morning I started crying… the topic of discussion was “what type of mom do you want to be?” this really got me thinking. I want to be the type of mom I needed when I was a little girl. Don’t get me wrong I love my mom dearly, but we had a rocky relationship for along time. I needed a mom that was present and not working 16hrs a day. My mom was a single mom who worked her butt off to give me everything she could and she taught me to be an independent women, not to rely on anybody for anything.

But I am not a single mom. I am a married mom who has a wonderful husband. I want to be there for every milestone with my daughter. I want to do fun outings to the library and the park, to spend as much time with her as I possible can building a bond that cannot be broken. I want to be more than just the person that makes the milk.

It breaks my heart that if given the choice she reaches for my mother in law her has her while I am at work.

We as working mamas need to figure out how to be home with our babies. We need to break the stigma that this generation has been placed in that all women must work now. There is not a damn thing wrong with aspiring to be a stay at home mom like our grandparents were.


We Tried Avocado…

Elena is 4 months old this week and has been showing an interest in grabbing food off our plates.

We decided to try baby lead weaning, which is essentially giving them what is on your plate if they show interest.

Any food before 1 is just for fun so we had a blast exploring texture and taste with the avocado. Elena wasn’t quite sure what to think of the texture at first because she grabbed it and it immediately squished in her first. Eventually she decided to taste it and wasn’t quite sure about the taste which I expected.

We will try again another day.

Next to try is Banana, we know she enjoys broccoli cheese soup and peanut butter and before everybody looses their mind it was not intentional for her to try those foods yet. I was eating and she stuck her fist in my soup and In the peanut butter that dropped of my sandwich and put it in her mouth before I could stop her.

Birth Story

October 25th 2017

40weeks 2 days.

Induction Day!

  • 4pm…
    • arrive at Baptist Health Richmond,
    • get checked in
    • change into my hospital gown that I brought from home! Best decision ever was bringing my own hospital gown that I ordered on amazon.
  • 6pm…
    • Come in and determine that I am at 2cm dilated and still have a ways to go.
    • Start slow drip of Pitocin
    • Insert Foley Bulb
  • 8pm…
    • Go to pee… Foley bulb falls out
    • Gina (Dr. Land) comes in and determines that  I am at 5cm
    • We up the Pitocin since I am not feeling any contractions and I am told to relax for the night and let the Pitocin work

October 26th 2017

Game Day!

  • 6am…
    • I wake up, uncomfortable with contractions and decide to pay some bills and read a book.
  • 7am…
    • Robin (midwife) comes in and informs me that she is going to break my water
    • Break my water
    • Up Pitocin
  • 7:15am…
    • Hard rocking contractions begin! No time to change into contacts from my glasses this is go time!
  • 11:30 – Noon
    • I feel like I am being split in half from back labor
    • Robin checks me…still only 5cm.
    • At this point I am contracting every 2 minutes lasting 2 minutes a piece. So absolute no break in between. Crying in exhaustion.
  • Noon
    • We discuss Epidural.
    • I agree to the epidural to give my body a break
      • Bless Phil (he did the epidural) he is an angel! He walked me through everything and was gentle as a feather because he knew I was terrified of an epidural and that is why I wanted to go without one.
  • 4:00pm
    • Robin comes in to check on me
      • Holy cow we are at 9cm!
  • 5pm
    • I start to feel pushy so I call my nurse
  • 5:15pm
    • We are at 10cm! It’s Go Time!
    • Phil made sure that with the epidural I could still feel enough that I knew when to push and had movement in my feet so I was not totally numb
    • Everybody is gowned up and ready to go
    • After a few practice pushes we realize that little miss is sunny side up and needed to turn to face my back.
    • Robin felt confident leaving me with the nurses to push while she attended other patients.
  • 6:30pm
    • The Nurses can see hair!
    • Robin, and the labor team are called in!
  • 7pm
    • Still pushing but now it is shift change!
    • My labor team quickly does their update for the new team and we keep on going.
    • At this point all of my day shift nurses decided that they are going to stick with me till the end, we had been through too much for them not to see little miss born!
    • Gina (Dr. Land) who happens to be my aunt comes in pushes the nurses out of the way and coaches me the rest of the way through labor!
  • 7:28pm
    • Elena Antoinette Gautreaux makes her arrival, perfectly healthy in a room full of 12 nurses and 2 doctors cheering us on .
    • 7lbs 11oz, 20.25in long with a head full of dark curly hair
    • 2nd degree tear but didn’t even notice it.


**Was in active labor of 22hrs with actively pushing for 2hrs 28minutes. **

**Picture is Elena and I, when she was 4 days old. We had been home from the hospital for 2 days.

Momma and baby

Its a Food Baby… Just Kidding

I have not posted anything since January, that is due to the fact we found out we are expecting a little bundle of joy in October. We did not tell the family until last week after we made sure we were in the clear of any issues that could possibly arise. So to not risk spilling the beans to the internet, I have stayed away! So here is an update


Baby Gautreaux:

Current Size: 2.9in so about the size of a peach

Age: 13 weeks 4 days

Heart Rate: 168bpm at (11 weeks 4 days)

Due Date: Oct. 21st

Gender: ??


Midwife: Robin Higgins at Richmond Women’s health, she is absolutely wonderful so far

Complaints: Already having to buy maternity clothes (yes,cute baby bump pic to come), lower back pain, inability to handle the heat, many many bathroom trips

Morning Sickness: Only lasted during week 7

Severe Acne: None, skin is actually impoving

Medical Issues: Absolutely none so far.

Favorite Snacks: Fresh Fruit, Fresh Veggies with ranch, yogurt and sour patch kids


My plan is for this pregnancy and birth to be 100% natural, no inductions, no c-section, no medications what so ever. I would prefer to have baby gautreaux at home but in Central KY it is very difficult to find a home birth midwife.




Bye Bye 2016

2016…. it was well eventful in good and bad ways. It started wonderful

I married my best friend (great)

Both got new jobs (great)

Got re-accepted to college (great)

Totaled my car (bad)

Financial struggle (bad)

2017…. you are going to be amazing. I didn’t make a resolution because I never keep them. Frankly I forgot what my 2016 one was.

In 2017…

Our 1 year anniversary

Our first family vacation

Nathan turns 16!

I go back to school!

I vow to get away from financial struggle.